Rejection

‘I’m single, gorgeous and loving life!’

That’s how you deal with rejection. After all isn’t that the best revenge? To be happy and never let him know how much it hurt?
‘I don’t need him. I can do better than that!’
These are the mantras used to lessen the blow.
‘Yeah! You’re right! Who needs him!’
This feeling lasts probably around 10 minutes. And then you’re here; sitting on the couch on a Friday night, between a box of tissues and a packet of Tim Tams. The mountain of tissues beside you is caused by:
1) Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan finally finding each other on top of the Empire State building,
2) the fact that you can no longer fit into your favourite jeans, and; 
3) because of him.

Unfortunately, the fact that he’s your best friend complicates things. No matter how hard you try to avoid him, he always seems to be right there. He’s at school, work, and even in your own home. It soon becomes impossible to ignore the fact that he is no longer by your side. You try to forget about him by reading a book. Sadly, the lead character and Prince Charming in the novel has been branded with his name. Putting the book down, you turn to the radio, attempting to clear your mind. Regrettably the top ten songs are stained with memories of him.

Anger soon replaces pain. However it does not remain contained within the body for long. It soon explodes after he attempts to kiss you. Considering all the shit he’s done recently, you’re quite surprised you didn’t punch him in the face. Instead, your ‘what the fuck is wrong with you’ expression says it all. And just in case he didn’t understand, the confusion is cleared up when you pour a red cruiser onto his light grey Country Road pants. The rage pumping through your veins gives you the strength to walk away, leaving him there, attempting to soak up the damage with a coaster. Although this dramatic situation looks like you've won, your problem has still not been resolved, as he is still not yours.

There are many ways one can deal with rejection; however in a serious case such as this, the path taken will not necessarily be the best choice. Instead of picking the high road you choose the course which seems more accommodating to your situation. It becomes clear to you that the only way to get him back is to make him jealous. A tempting fantasy soon begins brewing in your mind, constructing the perfect scenario in another man’s arms, while coincidently running into the one who made you gain those extra kilos. He begins to confess his undying love for you and admits all of his mistakes. Unfortunately, your ‘reunion’ does not quite turn out as you'd imagined. Instead of being with some hunky piece of ass, you’re dressed in an old pair of trackies with no makeup and shopping for toilet paper. An attractive situation? I think not.

This new found depression can make you do terrible things, which at the time, feel so good! It can lead to a lapse in judgement. For example, when depressed, shopping alone can be disastrous. You will start to believe all sorts of bullshit.
‘That jacket looks great on you!’
Although it is significantly out of your price range, the shop assistant does not give in.
‘It’s a perfect cut, and it sits just right!’
Looking in the mirror you start smiling, compliments suit perfectly at a time like this. The sales woman senses your vulnerable state and pounces.
‘It’s one of a kind, real leather!’
BAM!
$230 later you’re walking out of the store with a smile spread across your face, not realising that when you get home, the jacket looks like shit and you won’t have petrol for a week.

Eventually, as time moves on, these feelings subside. It can be a gradual feeling over time, or it can be a sudden understanding. For me, this closure happened when I was walking alone, eating ice-cream. It was at this point that I realised, none of it really mattered anymore. I finished my delicious ice-cream and I understood, just like ice-cream, all good things come to an end. Yes I had a good time with him, and yes he is still a huge part of my life. But yes I am going to eat another ice-cream and yes it will taste better than the last.